Some random thoughts

A little over a week has passed since I arrived and I wanted to put some things down on paper that will probably not make for a good full post on their own.

1. All the drivers in Israel are insane. They do drive in the middle of the road most of the time. They are angry and loud and in a hurry.
2. It doesn't seem like a lot of people here act happy. If you ask them, they will most likely say that they are, but they just don't show. I haven't seen the relaxed atmosphere of American Midwest yet. === Editor's Note - After I wrote this blog, ynetnews had a news article where according to recent survey, over 80% of Israelis are satisfied with their lives ===
3. I'm definitely not used to most of the Russians here. They are different than in the States. Will probably expand on this more in the future. In the meantime, just gathering the info.
4. It's very nice to hear from people that they enjoy reading these posts. Makes me want to keep writing. It's also heartwarming to get good wishes from everyone. Thank you.
5. After a week I still don't have a cell phone. Feel like an incomplete person. Who knew...
6. Expanding on the previous thought, I'm beginning to realize that I should only rely on myself. If I don't do something, nobody will do it for me. At the same time, if there is nothing that I can do, I should completely put my trust into others. I know it sounds confusing, but I've been stressing out over not having documents like ID card, or having to go to welfare office or motor vehicle department (to register my license). There is absolutely nothing I could do to change those because I can't leave the kibbutz during the week anyway. However, I found out today from a previous ulpanist that everything will be organized and done in time. So why lose hair over something that's out of one's control then? I should just focus on things I can change. Like studying.
I will get a cell phone though. Hopefully next week.
7. There finally was a glimpse of what I was looking for. This will be even tougher to explain than the whole "relying only on yourself and others" thought you just read. It's the feeling of home. I was riding with David somewhere and while driving by some random houses on some random street in some random town, I felt that I love them. That they are mine. It was a brief moment but when I felt it, I struggled not to cry. Now I can honestly say that already I am happy that I came here. I will repeat that for myself: I am happy. So with that knowledge, just imagine what's to come...